For some reason I just keep thinking about people who have hard hearts. When I say "hard", I mean people who won't let love in. People who continuously push others away. People who carry grudges with them until they can no longer even remember what the grudge was, but they continue to have a hard heart. These are the people that I feel like I need to reach out to, but sometimes that isn't always the easiest thing to do. Like I've said before, I think my purpose in this life is to help others and share with them what it's like to have a kind and compassionate heart. I really want to make an impact on people's lives, but it seems that lately I have struck out in that area. I will continue to try though, and really show others what I am capable of and why I want to help them.
My own little heart is bursting with anticipation of hearing about the scholarship that will not only pay for my year of tuition, but give me a monthly stipend, buy me and computer, and support me throughout grad school. I feel truly blessed to have been able to apply to this program and scholarship. I feel that this is where I am headed and I just want all those around me to support me and help me through it, which everyone has been and it has really given me the courage and strength to be patient and wait this out. I hope to hear about it this week or next. Waiting hasn't always been a strong point for me. I know I need to just sit back and trust that everything will work out in my advantage.
I've been blessed with a job and a little income now, which has been great. This keeps me preoccupied and is truly a new field, one that I've never thought I would have the opportunity to wander into. I'm a coffee Barista here in Klamath Falls, truly the best coffee shop in town. I really enjoy working there and meeting new people every single day. It's amazing to me the people I meet and see, and the great conversations that are had.
I am hosting my very own "31 Bits" House party on April 23rd. I am so excited for this. I just want a chance to help these amazing women in Uganda and support them in their lives. The jewelry they make is amazing and so unique. I am so happy to be a part of this cause and support their dreams. This is another certain aspect of my life that I want to change. I would love to be able to travel to Uganda and surrounding areas to volunteer and reach out to women who are struggling. And not only women, but children too; anyone really.
That's where everything starts to come back into perspective. Get school done first, then I can do anything I want! I can go anywhere and stay and teach, or help. Ahhhhh, to be able to do that would surely be the best thing in the world. I believe so, yes. But for now it's working and coaching. Living and breathing. Helping and loving.
Namaste.
